to be forgotten day

i really cannot believe it...

how bad can your day get? i was awaken by a text that stirred my emotion.

-instance 1-

it was december when an orgmate asked me a favor if she can borrow a water heater to be used in her another org.

the being kind in me agreed and asked a dormmate if i can borrow his heater. he lent with a caution that it might be broken. i said don't worry.
i was not yet back in school, so i asked someone to return it back for me.
there were two heaters that were returned to the dorm. when i saw the owner of the heater, he told me that his heater was unbearable. it was so much damaged that it is practically of no aesthetic value.
i was appalled, my name was at stake there. so, i composed myself and offered to replace it. he agreed. i then told my orgmate of what happened. she suggested that the two heaters could have been switched. so, i asked the person to whom the two water heaters were given. that person assured me that the heater on their possession was really theirs. that implies that either the water heater that was returned to my dormmate was really destroyed or switched with somebody else.
either way, i still was depressed by the text message which read: *i would like to follow-up my water heater. be a responsible borrower naman *. even though that person is really not close to me, i still was saddened by the accusation that i'm an irresponsible borrower :(

-instance 2-

more than that *irresponsible borrower* statement, something worse happened.

again, i also got a text that woke me up. i missed my first class and my groupmate for the past experiments texted me that he was the only person from the group in the lab. he asked me where were the circuit design and materials for the project. i told him that i do not have a copy and that i was not in-charge of the materials. he said that he would not deny that he was angry because the one holding the design was also absent and that the in-charge of the materials said the materials were not available yet. i just replied that i would be present during the class lecture and that we would talk there. but then again, that talk made matters worse...

just a background, it was the first lab meeting of the new year. he was the only present out of the four of us in the group. so he was made to join other groups. naturally, the three of us still were groupmates plus another classmate was assigned to us for that experiment. the design problem was given the week after and that he was absent. we did not expect that this *new groupmate* still joined our group. that moment led the group into writing her name as our groupmate. this was spontaneous, it was not intended to happen. -endbackground-

i just told him that since he was absent during the day the design problem was given, somebody else took his place. of course, his feeling was anger. he told me that he was not informed about this and he walked out...

when i was back in the dorm, i was depressed of the recent turn of events. my phone rang and i got a message coming from that groupmate. i decided not to read it, but just replied something like this: "hi. i purposely did not read your last text. i know that it is in angry mode. my hands are full of depressions already and the last thing that i want to happen is to add another depressive situation. just wanna tell you that i was not in control of the situation. rest assured that i shall tell the other groupmates. for the meantime, if you need help, just ask. sorry again". he replied, but i still do not wish to read it, at least this time...

so there, i just strolled around the acad oval for an evening walk and for solitary moments, and also to withdraw some cash (i only had 30 bucks in my wallet ;p)... thinking things over on what lessons i can learn from here.

Lord, please help me during these depressing times...