thank you very much my Lord for the cantata

since i have been pressured by the nth time to conform to the norms of this world, i really must run away from it and find comfort with Him and other believers.

yesterday was really a very crucial time for me, as in like super! super pressured... my roommate made me feel that it was cool to be in love and just go for it.

FYI, i have been consistently inspired my uncle and my parents that it would really be better to do with that love life after graduation in college, so many reasons were given but the principle is the same.

so, i made it to the point of not really suppressing the feeling, but making sure of it before making it a serious one... hence, i am still a proud member of NGBSB (No Girlfriend/Boyfriend Since Birth). i have set my priorites straight.

but that priority was tested and i even got confused which is which... so there, i was YMing with an orgmate until 3am! i know i was confident that it was another one of those pressure moments, but i really almost fell for it.

good thing there was an activity of my former church the next day. it was cantata. i was really looking forward to it. partially because of the activity as a whole (the music, dances, FOOD, everything!), but more because that i really wanted to be in the fellowship of other believers as well... these are the people who have at least the basic understanding of Him, and there are also many who are that really deeply rooted to His Word.

so, God was again so gracious to me. He made me feel that my citizenship is not here but in heaven... hey that means that i should maintain His strict moral standards and not be persuaded by the alluring secular world.

there, i have forgotten about the pressure stage, i mean right there and there, i felt that i was winning the battle against this test. i was blessed by our fellowship, they continually reminded me that they are still there to continue in running the race, and committed to finishing it!

God is really so sovereign. i then realized that i should not fall or just even be bothered by the actions of other non-believers. instead, if there is a need to rebuke, then do so but with compassion. i am not into rebuking my roommate right now, i mean if i were to ask, he should start praying for that girl. but what i know is that i must continue with God's plan, and i believe that He does not will me to be in a relationship yet. it would be very unfair to all parties (mine, special someone, and most especially to God), if i just continue with my own futile will. He knows everything and i should just let Him do with His plans, for i know He is my God who never allows me to be hopelessly engulfed by the enemy.

i shall post later what transpired during the cantata, and the many as in like MANY exciting moments.

so there, just watch out for my next post...

praise God to the fullest!