major update! (sort of a long post, hehe…)

i just resigned from my JOB!!! my resignation takes effect by the 1st of september 2006.

no… i did not resign out of bitterness or something, or for greener pasture, but rather more of career growth and social growth.

with regards to career growth, initially i found my current job OK, but after almost four months it was becoming boring. i felt that i have been not learning significantly… reason: my job is *maintenance*. meaning, it does not require you to think that much. i have been left out by my UP DCS batchmates (at least in another company) wherein they have been acquiring knowledge to the next level. not for anything, but i do not necessarily believe that a person like me is needed to handle this task. adding to the feeling of being stagnant is the mere fact that i had no real mentor. sure indeed, there are some people here that are really good. however, much that they liked to share their knowledge, i could not understand what they are trying to say. i’m completely at lost! henceforth, i am always stuck with taking the minutes of the meeting, and being in-charge of the documentation galore. handling the operators was sort of, how do i say it, synonymous to boredom too. there is nothing bad about the job but rather the problem is with me, so please don’t get me wrong.

now, the social growth part. as a person still in his very early 20s (as in!), of course, i was looking for people who could relate with my views AND within my same wavelength. i found people who have joined the company at the same time as i did, and they also came from prominent schools like ateneo and la salle. naturally, i was inclined to go with these batchmates, however, they are in other departments. it was really not that bad, but i find it not comfortable whenever they are talking about their teams, project managers, *team lunch out*, etc… this surely made me out of place, plus there was this atenean guy (i believe he also resigned already) that always make (present tense, because he still does it) people not welcome.

this taught me to reach-out to my officemates. i thought that i was the type of the person having the ability to respond well to any given people. i was proven wrong! rather, i have become so judgmental, in other words… instead of edifying, i was more or less sinning! here’s the set-up in my office / department… we have contractual employees (that are not somewhat young) and we have regular employees (that are definitely not somewhat young). logic would tell me to first associate with the regular employees, after all, they are the ones who have *permanent* tenure. thus, fostering friendship with them could be lasting. however, no matter how i *forced* myself to bond with them, it just did not click. they always ask me out for lunch and other activities, like drinking sessions and the like (oh no!!!) but i just am not that comfortable with their company. once again, generation gap proves to exist! whew… this leads me to the only choice of befriending the contractuals. this is the part that i have been sinning. this is a test of my character for i have viewed the casuals as inferior. [i'm now expecting comments at this point from readers] i could not swallow the scenario of having to lunch out with the contractuals, while at the same time my regular batchmates-employees, that are actually more or less at my level, having fun by themselves. God, i beg thee to be just and merciful in forgiving me and that teach me how to show compassion and acceptance for others…

when everything has been said and done, i am leaving soluziona without any bitternes. i have cultivated relationships, though not that deep. i am leaving a position that many people would aspire for, good for them. and now, i really hope that my new job come september 1st is really meant for me :)