before the month ends...

hmm...

seems like my posts do not follow regular basis anymore ;p

company outing was last weekend. it was for free, and the food was great! it was held at the batangas country club. of course, i was not with the group of my officemates, malamang... they are so old na kaya. hard to relate. the youngest, apart from me, is in his uber-late twenties. kumusta naman? i was just 20 last month! ;p

naturally, during the *big chill* (this was saturday night), there was a drinking spree. good thing i was with my batchmates, there were 11 of us in our group of newbies who joined. but only three have the principle of not drinking. so, it was pressure-be-gone drama during the night. one of the non-drinkers is my batchmate also from UPDCS. the other one is from ateneo. i am not that close to that UPDCS batchmate since she was not one of my cliques during college days, while this arnean guy maintains this intangible effect. nice evening. fine, bring it on! ;p

hehe... generally speaking, the outing went just fine. an ordinary event for me. it's very different compared to my college orgs' outings. i believe it's because, in a college org outing, the people you are with are first, within your age bracket; and second, you have something in common: like passion for debate (or some elitista way of thinking ;p), same faith and conviction, scholarly thoughts, etc...

coming from an elitist org in UP - which was one of the groups that influenced me a lot - situates me in the middle: (on one end) out of a UP stereotype of being tibak and geeky, (and on the other end) not that much association with the uber-suplado (and the i-do-not-care-who-you-are) people.

it's just a mixture of being an elitista at the same time, being not that numb with other people. being in the middle can really be a very good asset, or sometimes a liability. and in this current situation, i say that it is more of a liability. oh well...

now i know how it feels in the real world... unlike in my comfort zone back in UP college wherein the world seemed to be perfect - that is, being in the middle was just fine. now, there is a pressing need to make a choice.

i shall still hold that choice yet and disclose it sometime, i do not want to make a hasty decision. for now, i'll just enjoy this thing called - life :)